TRUST ME

29 October 2016

11:16 Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

Today he moved his hand, slightly moved his head, and changed his expression a bit while the physiotherapist stretched his hamstrings. This is the first time that he reacted with respect to his lower limbs. The therapist told me that he felt the pain that is why he did that.

Thank You, Lord God! I think now I understand your message yesterday...

"Honey, yesterday I showed you that he is improving. But he got too tired because I also wanted to show you that his body is not yet ready. I am healing his body one cell after another. Be patient my child, TRUST ME."

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Thank You for not getting tired on me Lord God. Thank You for finding ways to communicate with me when I don't get or understand Your message correctly.

KUMUSTA NA SI GLENN?

24 October 2016
Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

  Mag-iisang buwan na mula ng tumigil sa pagtibok ang puso nya.  May mga tumawag, sabi nila "Bilisan mo, pumunta na kayo ng mga bata dito." Kahit hindi nila sinabi, alam ko sa likod ng isip nila, "Bilisan mo, baka hindi niyo na siya abutan."

    Pero sinong makakasukat ng kapangyarihan ng AMA? Mag-iisang buwan na, pero andito siya, patuloy na nagpapalakas at lumalaban. Walang araw na hindi ko nasasaksihan ang pagmamahal ng Diyos sa kanya... sa amin.

     Mag-iisang buwan na mula ng dalawang ulit na tumigil ang puso nya. Mag-iisang buwan na din mula ng dalawang ulit syang niligtas ni LORD. At ang pinakamadalas na tanong sa loob ng isang buwan: "Kumusta na si Glenn A. Bagtas? Gising na ba sya?"

Sabi ng Siyensya: 

    Clinically unresponsive; Glasgow Coma Scale : 7;has undergone tracheostomy; still breathe with the help of a ventilator; Heart: stable ; had undergone angioplasty and stent placement; Reflexes: gag, coughing, blinking reflex, negative babinski reflex; reacts to pain; with spontaneous eye opening and closing;  Brain EEG result: still unavailable; will be reassessed by a neurologist three months after his cardiac arrests

Sabi ko naman:

     Nagre-respond naman siya. Hindi nga lang ung gustong normal respond ng mga doktor. Hindi pa niya kaya ung on command "Move your finger, move your hand, look to your left or right.."  Hindi pa ganoon.

     Sa ngayon natutuwa na ko na nakakadilat at nakakapikit na siya ng kusa.
     Na nagigising siya kapag tinawag ang pangalan niya o niyugyog siya ng mahina.
     Na naghihikab na siya kapag nagigising siya.

     Na magkaiba ung "blink pattern" o kurap niya sa mga tao na kumakausap sa kanya. 

     Na may time na naluluha sya pag kinakausap ko siya o ng mga bata.
    Na kahapon, October 25, meron  akong narinig na mahinang tunog, "rrrrrrr", habang kausap siya ni Cassey.

     Na minsan napipisil niya ung kamay ko.

     Na sumusunod siya pag sinabi kong, "open your mouth" at pinipilit niyang ilaki ung buka ng bibig niya kahit alam kong nakakapagod iyon para sa kanya.

     Na naipipilig niya na ang ulo nya kapag ayaw nya ng "suction tube."
     Na kumunot ung kilay niya kahapon, October 25, sa unang pagkakataon.

    Na gumagalaw ung bibig niya kapag sinasabihan ko siya ng "iloveyou" o oras na pa siya naman ang mag "iloveyou" sa mga bata.

     Na may isang gising siya na ang lamlam lamlam ng mukha niya at naluha siya nung sinabi kong "Ayos lang yan Daddy, gagaling ka din.. Magtiwala lang tayo kay LORD.  Siya ang nagligtas sa iyo noong September 26; Siya din ang magpapagaling sa iyo. "

     Kumusta na si Glenn? Mabuti siya, nagpapalakas sa tulong at awa ni LORD. Pasasaan ba, at gagaling din siya.

Love Beyond Religion and Traditions

Two Hours and Thirty Minutes After Glenn's Tracheostomy

11  October 2016
14:00 Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

I thought I'm already immune to his struggles.
Right now I don't know if I want to puke or cry.
To see him like this is really crashing the wall that I' ve built over the week.
I'm standing but I am hollow.
One touch and I'd crumble.

On the positive side, the procedure lasted only for 30 minutes and was done smoothly, as described by the doctor. I waited outside his room and as I prayed to God that I needed someone to give me a tap on the back and say that it will be ok, a Muslim female with only her eyes visible through a black cloth -- of different race, different culture, different belief -- came to me and asked me what is happening and how the patient is related to me. She asked me if we have kids and how old is he. After a while, she walked away. I thanked God for sending someone totally different  from me , to talk to me and divert my worries. I thanked Him for showing that God's love is beyond religion and traditions. Then a Filipina nurse passed by me , touched my arm and told me not to worry, "He will be fine." And then another personnel asked me if I am fine and pushed a chair to my side, which I decided to hold on to.

I am crumbling... but then God surely tapped me and said "Everything's gonna be fine."

MIRACLES UNFOLD EVERY DAY

Yesterday I went to church, here in Qatar, with Jerome.  The homily was about God’s miraculous healing of the ten lepers (https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%2017:11-19).

God is indeed powerful , and I am witnessing miracles day after day.

Please pray with me as I ask God’s mercy for the continuous healing of my husband, Glenn A. Bagtas.

All praises and glory be Yours forever Lord GOD.

Lord God, as You are the Only One who could heal leprosy, I believe that You are the Only One who saved Glenn when his heart stopped beating twice on September 26, 2016. You protected him during that car crash that not one scratch was found on his skin.  You sent help Lord God, at the time his heart stopped beating.  You used those people to revive him for 20 minutes LORD God, when they could otherwise just stopped and declared him dead after 10 minutes.  You made that angioplasty successful, Lord. And when his heart stopped for the second time that night, You again showed Your power by bringing him back after 23 minutes. 

Thank You, Lord God. I will forever praise and thank You.

Lord God, I believe that  You are the only one who can heal Glenn completely. You already defied science the day you saved him. Please, Lord God, carry him during this struggle. Calm his spirit, Lord.  Castaway his worries and fears.  Hold his heart and strengthen him to endure all these as you heal him. 

Continue to strengthen me, Lord God, as I wait until You decide that it is time for him to come back to me and our children.

I humbly ask for Glenn’s healing Lord God, in the mighty name of Jesus Christ Your Son.

Amen.

Thousands of Needles

Oct 3, 2016

Last night while praying and crying myself to sleep,
I drifted into a nightmare. 
I felt thousands of needles pricking my head, my face and my whole body.
I wanted to sit down but I can't move. 
I can't turn and I can't wake myself up.. 
I prayed. 
When I was finally able to move, I asked myself 
"Is that how Glenn feels now?" 
I hope not... 
My heart is breaking.. 
Strengthen me, Lord God. 
Please heal my husband.

Angels Without Wings

October 1, 2016

Yesterday I've met a bunch of angels without wings. To all the staff of the Qatar Embassy Makati Philippines, especially to the very kind guards, you just don't know how much goodness you have shown and shared with me. I couldn't thank you enough. May all God bless you as He blessed me.