Friday, December 16, 2016

21 Encouraging Bible Verses That Keep Me Standing

WHAT KEEPS ME STANDING

26 November 2016
Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital
Doha Qatar

All of us have our own battles: difficult and abusive relationships, broken family, financial issues, being jobless, failing grades, bullying, vices, poor health, terminal and degenerative diseases, miscarriage, infertility, war, natural disasters, death of loved ones, the list continues. Sometimes we feel ours is harder than others. Sometimes we cry and ask so many whys…  We dwell so much in our pains up to the point of ruining ourselves, our relationships, and our connection with God. But being our Father, God will never let go of our hands. Even if we stop praying and start blaming Him, He still looks after us lovingly and sends angels to guide us back. He gives us family and friends to support us. He uses other people, sometimes a complete stranger, to show His love and concern to us. During our darkest times, He carries us.

We are in the dark right now. My husband and I are in a foreign land, 4,646 miles away from our two young daughters. I am taking care of him, with mostly foreign nurses and doctors, because he has sustained an anoxic brain injury as a result of cardiac arrest secondary to acute myocardial infraction. It’s been two months, and he is still categorized as unresponsive.

It is hard to be strong but it is harder to STAY strong. Seeing him in pain, every day, and not being able to do anything to ease it is disheartening. Almost all the medical staff tell me not to worry too much because, according to them, most of the time patients like him do not feel the pain, that their reactions are mostly reflexive and that they are unaware of what is happening around them… But I see and feel otherwise. If he can’t feel the pain, then why can’t he sleep? Why does he always flinch at the slightest movement of his muscles? Why does he moan in pain every time contraction creeps in? Why does it not stop? Why can’t the medicines make it stop? To all these they have one answer, “It is because of the brain injury.” It is a fact that they want me to understand. It is a sentence that they expect me to accept. But I wouldn’t. I will not.

No matter how many times they tell me that they know how painful it is for the family, they will never really understand. Only people who have been and are in the same situation as we are now will understand. They say I am in denial. I am not.  I am educated and I understand those terms. I even search the internet for answers. What they are missing,  is that he is my husband and he is the father of my children. As a wife and a mother, no matter how things seem bleak, I will always hope and pray that he will get better.

I never asked God why did this thing happen to us, but I did ask Him once if He is sure that I can handle this situation. That may be, He has overestimated my capacity… I never doubted Him, but I doubted myself… I doubted my strength.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. -2 Corinthians 12:9

This is a tough battle, but what keeps me standing is my love for my husband, our kids, our families (mine and his), our friends back home, new friends and families here, and of most importantly, the love and grace from God, our Father.

Today, I am sharing these Bible verses in the hope that you too, find strength and comfort in the words of our Lord.  Let us all keep the faith and remember that God is in control.

“May your faith rest not in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.” 1 Corinthians 2:4-5

 

21 Encouraging Bible Verses on Tough Times


1.  Isaiah 43:2-3a
When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze.
 For I am the Lord your God,

    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;

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2. 2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
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3. Psalm 46:10

“Be still and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation! I will be honored throughout the world!”


http://guidedchristianmeditation.com/181/meditation/be-still-and-know-that-i-am-god-the-meaning-of-be-still-will-surprise-you/ good readl

4.   Mark4:39-41
Then He rose and rebuked the wind, and said to the waves, “Peace, be still!” and the wind died down and there was great calm. He said to His disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this man? Even the wind and waves obey Him!”

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5. Psalm 34:17-18
“The Lord hears His people when they call to Him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
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6. Mark 11:24-25
“Therefore, whatever you ask for in a prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours. But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in Heaven will forgive your sins, too.” 



7. Philippians 4:6
“Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.”




8. Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you will go.”
http://www.faithgateway.com/be-strong-and-courageous/#.WC1mhfl97IU


9 Isaiah 40:31
But those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

http://www.dailylifeverse.com/posts/2012/10/isaiah-40-31

10. Proverbs 3:5-6
 Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding. Seek His way in all that you do, and He will make your paths straight.

  

11. Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you, “ says the Lord. “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future.”

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12. Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8

A Time for Everything

For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
    A time to plant and a time to harvest.
 A time to kill and a time to heal.
    A time to tear down and a time to build.
A time to weep and a time to laugh.
    A time to mourn and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather them.
    A time to embrace and a time to turn away.


https://jvn2k07.wordpress.com/2016/09/06/lifes-seasons-ecclesiastes-31-2/

13. Job 5:8-9
   “But if I were you, I would appeal to God;
    I would lay my cause before him.
    He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed,
    miracles that cannot be counted.


http://www.hippoquotes.com/job-quotes-bible

14. Psalm 61:1-4
Hear my cry, O God;
   listen to my prayer.
From the ends of the Earth I call to you,
   I call as my heart grows faint;
   lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For you have been my refuge,
  a strong tower against the foe.
I long to dwell in your tent forever
  and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.



http://bestlifemistake.blogspot.qa/2013/03/verses-of-encouragement.html

15. Psalm 50:15
“Trust me in your time of trouble, and I will rescue you, and you will give me glory.”

https://www.askideas.com/trust-me-in-your-times-of-trouble-and-i-will-rescue-you-and-you-will-give-me-glory/
16. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
 Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not jealous, or boastful, or proud, or rude. It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

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17. Psalm 23:4
Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.




18. Job 11:16
“You will forget your misery; it will be like water flowing away.”



19. Mathew 19:26
“Jesus looked at them and intently said, “Humanly speaking it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.”


20. James 5:15
Such a prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven.



21. Joel 2:25-26
 "I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the hopper, the destroyer, and the cutter, my great army, which I sent among you. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you. And my people shall never again be put to shame."


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Saturday, November 26, 2016

Cyrene

02601102016
Doha Qatar

Sabi ni Mella, nagdrawing daw si Cyrene, my two-year-old daughter, kanina ng tao.
Si Ate daw ung malaki, may mata saka may smile.
Tapos nagdrawing  ulit sya ng maliit na stick man, may mata saka buhok din, pero walang bibig.
"Si Cyrene, Titaw. Sad si Cyrene." sabi nya.
 Tinanong ni Titaw kung bakit sad si cyrene, "Kasi wala syang Mommy."



HOPEFUL

25 November 2016
1700 Hours 
Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital
Doha Qatar

A nurse aide came in for turning.  "How are you?" he asked.  I smiled and said, "I am good. No choice but to be good."

"You look ... tired.   He is lucky you are here."  he said.  I smiled again and replied, "Thank you."   "No. Really , he is lucky you are here taking care of him." he insisted.

I looked at my husband and said, "I am just giving back. He is good..."  I wanted to say more but I couldn’t…  I just smiled and headed to the washroom as tears roll down my cheeks. 
                                       
Pondering on this conversation, I realized he is not just lucky.  He is blessed that I am here.  I am blessed that I am here.  There are many patients here without a relative or caregiver that looks after them other than the assigned nurses.  They seem neglected but for all we know, somewhere around the globe, their parents, wife, children, and other relatives are wishing to be here, too.  They are, most probably, longing to take care of their loved one and to ensure that their needs are being met.  They might be hoping to be here, too, but for some reasons -- visa, plane tickets, work, financial issues, etc. --they cannot.

WE ARE BLESSED.  And in spite of what we are going through right now, I thank God.  Every day that my husband opens his eyes is a blessing. Every day that I am given a chance to take care of him is a blessing from God.  Having time to be together, no matter what the circumstances are, is a blessing. I know that one of these days, God will give me a miracle.

And contrary to what the case manager said, I am not in-denial.  I am hopeful




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Saturday, October 29, 2016

TRUST ME

29 October 2016

11:16 Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital


Today he moved his hand, slightly moved his head, and changed his expression a bit while the physiotherapist stretched his hamstrings. This is the first time that he reacted with respect to his lower limbs. The therapist told me that he felt the pain that is why he did that.

Thank You, Lord God! I think now I understand your message yesterday...

"Honey, yesterday I showed you that he is improving. But he got too tired because I also wanted to show you that his body is not yet ready. I am healing his body one cell after another. Be patient my child, TRUST ME."
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Thank You for not getting tired on me Lord God. Thank You for finding ways to communicate with me when I don't get or understand Your message correctly.

Monday, October 24, 2016

KUMUSTA NA SI GLENN?

24 October 2016
Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

  Mag-iisang buwan na mula ng tumigil sa pagtibok ang puso nya.  May mga tumawag, sabi nila "Bilisan mo, pumunta na kayo ng mga bata dito." Kahit hindi nila sinabi, alam ko sa likod ng isip nila, "Bilisan mo, baka hindi niyo na siya abutan."

    Pero sinong makakasukat ng kapangyarihan ng AMA? Mag-iisang buwan na, pero andito siya, patuloy na nagpapalakas at lumalaban. Walang araw na hindi ko nasasaksihan ang pagmamahal ng Diyos sa kanya... sa amin.

     Mag-iisang buwan na mula ng dalawang ulit na tumigil ang puso nya. Mag-iisang buwan na din mula ng dalawang ulit syang niligtas ni LORD. At ang pinakamadalas na tanong sa loob ng isang buwan: "Kumusta na si Glenn A. Bagtas? Gising na ba sya?"

Sabi ng Siyensya: 
    Clinically unresponsive; Glasgow Coma Scale : 7;has undergone tracheostomy; still breathe with the help of a ventilator; Heart: stable ; had undergone angioplasty and stent placement; Reflexes: gag, coughing, blinking reflex, negative babinski reflex; reacts to pain; with spontaneous eye opening and closing;  Brain EEG result: still unavailable; will be reassessed by a neurologist three months after his cardiac arrests

Sabi ko naman:
     Nagre-respond naman siya. Hindi nga lang ung gustong normal respond ng mga doktor. Hindi pa niya kaya ung on command "Move your finger, move your hand, look to your left or right.."  Hindi pa ganoon.

     Sa ngayon natutuwa na ko na nakakadilat at nakakapikit na siya ng kusa.
     Na nagigising siya kapag tinawag ang pangalan niya o niyugyog siya ng mahina.
     Na naghihikab na siya kapag nagigising siya.
     Na magkaiba ung "blink pattern" o kurap niya sa mga tao na kumakausap sa kanya. 
     Na may time na naluluha sya pag kinakausap ko siya o ng mga bata.
    Na kahapon, October 25, meron  akong narinig na mahinang tunog, "rrrrrrr", habang kausap siya ni Cassey.
     Na minsan napipisil niya ung kamay ko.
     Na sumusunod siya pag sinabi kong, "open your mouth" at pinipilit niyang ilaki ung buka ng bibig niya kahit alam kong nakakapagod iyon para sa kanya.
     Na naipipilig niya na ang ulo nya kapag ayaw nya ng "suction tube."
     Na kumunot ung kilay niya kahapon, October 25, sa unang pagkakataon.
    Na gumagalaw ung bibig niya kapag sinasabihan ko siya ng "iloveyou" o oras na pa siya naman ang mag "iloveyou" sa mga bata.
     Na may isang gising siya na ang lamlam lamlam ng mukha niya at naluha siya nung sinabi kong "Ayos lang yan Daddy, gagaling ka din.. Magtiwala lang tayo kay LORD.  Siya ang nagligtas sa iyo noong September 26; Siya din ang magpapagaling sa iyo. "

     Kumusta na si Glenn? Mabuti siya, nagpapalakas sa tulong at awa ni LORD. Pasasaan ba, at gagaling din siya.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Love Beyond Religion and Traditions


Two Hours and Thirty Minutes After Glenn's Tracheostomy

11  October 2016
14:00 Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

I thought I'm already immune to his struggles.
Right now I don't know if I want to puke or cry.
To see him like this is really crashing the wall that I' ve built over the week.
I'm standing but I am hollow.
One touch and I'd crumble.

On the positive side, the procedure lasted only for 30 minutes and was done smoothly, as described by the doctor. I waited outside his room and as I prayed to God that I needed someone to give me a tap on the back and say that it will be ok, a Muslim female with only her eyes visible through a black cloth -- of different race, different culture, different belief -- came to me and asked me what is happening and how the patient is related to me. She asked me if we have kids and how old is he. After a while, she walked away. I thanked God for sending someone totally different  from me , to talk to me and divert my worries. I thanked Him for showing that God's love is beyond religion and traditions. Then a Filipina nurse passed by me , touched my arm and told me not to worry, "He will be fine." And then another personnel asked me if I am fine and pushed a chair to my side, which I decided to hold on to.
I am crumbling... but then God surely tapped me and said "Everything's gonna be fine."

Saturday, October 8, 2016

MIRACLES UNFOLD EVERY DAY

Yesterday I went to church, here in Qatar, with Jerome.  The homily was about God’s miraculous healing of the ten lepers (https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%2017:11-19).

God is indeed powerful , and I am witnessing miracles day after day.
Please pray with me as I ask God’s mercy for the continuous healing of my husband, Glenn A. Bagtas.

All praises and glory be Yours forever Lord GOD.

Lord God, as You are the Only One who could heal leprosy, I believe that You are the Only One who saved Glenn when his heart stopped beating twice on September 26, 2016. You protected him during that car crash that not one scratch was found on his skin.  You sent help Lord God, at the time his heart stopped beating.  You used those people to revive him for 20 minutes LORD God, when they could otherwise just stopped and declared him dead after 10 minutes.  You made that angioplasty successful, Lord. And when his heart stopped for the second time that night, You again showed Your power by bringing him back after 23 minutes. 

Thank You, Lord God. I will forever praise and thank You.

Lord God, I believe that  You are the only one who can heal Glenn completely. You already defied science the day you saved him. Please, Lord God, carry him during this struggle. Calm his spirit, Lord.  Castaway his worries and fears.  Hold his heart and strengthen him to endure all these as you heal him. 

Continue to strengthen me, Lord God, as I wait until You decide that it is time for him to come back to me and our children.

I humbly ask for Glenn’s healing Lord God, in the mighty name of Jesus Christ Your Son.

Amen.