Cyrene

02601102016
Doha Qatar

Sabi ni Mella, nagdrawing daw si Cyrene, my two-year-old daughter, kanina ng tao.
Si Ate daw ung malaki, may mata saka may smile.
Tapos nagdrawing  ulit sya ng maliit na stick man, may mata saka buhok din, pero walang bibig.
"Si Cyrene, Titaw. Sad si Cyrene." sabi nya.
 Tinanong ni Titaw kung bakit sad si cyrene, "Kasi wala syang Mommy."

HOPEFUL

25 November 2016

1700 Hours 

Hamad Medical Corporation -- Heart Hospital

Doha Qatar

A nurse aide came in for turning.  "How are you?" he asked.  I smiled and said, "I am good. No choice but to be good."

"You look ... tired.   He is lucky you are here."  he said.  I smiled again and replied, "Thank you."   "No. Really , he is lucky you are here taking care of him." he insisted.

I looked at my husband and said, "I am just giving back. He is good..."  I wanted to say more but I couldn’t…  I just smiled and headed to the washroom as tears roll down my cheeks. 

                                       

Pondering on this conversation, I realized he is not just lucky.  He is blessed that I am here.  I am blessed that I am here.  There are many patients here without a relative or caregiver that looks after them other than the assigned nurses.  They seem neglected but for all we know, somewhere around the globe, their parents, wife, children, and other relatives are wishing to be here, too.  They are, most probably, longing to take care of their loved one and to ensure that their needs are being met.  They might be hoping to be here, too, but for some reasons -- visa, plane tickets, work, financial issues, etc. --they cannot.

WE ARE BLESSED.  And in spite of what we are going through right now, I thank God.  Every day that my husband opens his eyes is a blessing. Every day that I am given a chance to take care of him is a blessing from God.  Having time to be together, no matter what the circumstances are, is a blessing. I know that one of these days, God will give me a miracle.

And contrary to what the case manager said, I am not in-denial.  I am hopeful. 

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